I like to think that I am a very simple person. I know my role in life is to make others happy and laugh. It is a role that I freely accept, and thoroughly enjoy. Not much gets to me. And if it does it is really for a short period of time. But today I am having issues.
Every Friday night I am drained from a hard week of teaching, night class, working out, and Xander (We're so close now). I try not to let it all get to me, but I am bothered most Saturdays. I CAN'T SLEEP ON FRIDAY NIGHTS!!! I have no idea why...some even suggest maybe I'm over exhausted. Well if I am I do not realize it. But on Saturday I really hate myself. EVERYTHING gets on my nerves. EVERYTHING.
I'm sure no one realizes how hard I try to hold it together, but I try really hard. I can't figure it out, but I know one thing...it really effects my mindset for working out. Right now I should want to go the gym. But I just finished vacuuming, cleaning, taking out garbage, and in a few minutes my father-in-law (Thank GOD for him!!!) is coming over to help me hang a ceiling fan in my bedroom. Who in their right mind does all of these chores instead of going to the gym?
ANSWER: Most people. Me included until January 1st. Most people will do ANYTHING to put off going to the gym. But not me...not now. I just have to realize that life is hard for everyone. Not just me. Poor Steve. I'm being a pompous ass!! I'm sorry. Especially to those I love, Especially to Dawn and Xander. Expect a mood change next Saturday morning.
PS...I'm drinking NyQuil on Friday nights from now on.
I WILL LOSE THIS WEIGHT!!!