Thursday, April 9, 2009

Sometimes Life Gets in the Way

I like to think that I am a very simple person. I know my role in life is to make others happy and laugh. It is a role that I freely accept, and thoroughly enjoy. Not much gets to me. And if it does it is really for a short period of time. But today I am having issues.

Every Friday night I am drained from a hard week of teaching, night class, working out, and Xander (We're so close now). I try not to let it all get to me, but I am bothered most Saturdays. I CAN'T SLEEP ON FRIDAY NIGHTS!!! I have no idea why...some even suggest maybe I'm over exhausted. Well if I am I do not realize it. But on Saturday I really hate myself. EVERYTHING gets on my nerves. EVERYTHING.

I'm sure no one realizes how hard I try to hold it together, but I try really hard. I can't figure it out, but I know one really effects my mindset for working out. Right now I should want to go the gym. But I just finished vacuuming, cleaning, taking out garbage, and in a few minutes my father-in-law (Thank GOD for him!!!) is coming over to help me hang a ceiling fan in my bedroom. Who in their right mind does all of these chores instead of going to the gym?

ANSWER: Most people. Me included until January 1st. Most people will do ANYTHING to put off going to the gym. But not me...not now. I just have to realize that life is hard for everyone. Not just me. Poor Steve. I'm being a pompous ass!! I'm sorry. Especially to those I love, Especially to Dawn and Xander. Expect a mood change next Saturday morning.

PS...I'm drinking NyQuil on Friday nights from now on.




50 POUNDS!!! The latest in a long line of goals reached!!!

I DID IT!!! There were many times that I didn't think I could do it....but I've done it. I lost 4.6 pounds this week, and I have officially hit the 50 pound mark. I am so proud of myself.

It feels great to be able to reach a goal that you set. I wanted to lose 50 pounds by the time Carter got here, and I beat him to the punch by four weeks. While sitting at the meeting tonight I started to think about what the next goal would be. I wanted the goal to be attainable, but not easy.

I will lose another 50 pounds by the time I step foot on Hilton Head Island on August 1st!!!! That will be 100 pounds lost, and I MIGHT (big MIGHT) take my shirt off on the beach. This has always been an issue for me. Even in college.

I had such a nice time at my WW meeting tonight because there were so many successes. Congratulations to all of those that have continued to succeed towards their goals. It is a pleasure being in the meetings with you.